More Awesome Than Sprinkles and Unicorns Combined

Today my  amazing work family showered the girls both with so much love in a beautiful unicorn themed celebration. No detail was left undone. This hopeful Momma to Be was also reminded that she is an event planner to the core and loves to celebrate others, but feels slightly awkward when the spotlight is on her. I am shocked I didn't cry through the whole dang thing because I get so excited/emotional thinking about the two of you.

While you couldn't be there sweet ones, today was ALL about the two of you! I can't wait for you to get here and meet the village of people who already love you so much. They have prayed, cried and celebrated alongside of us for the last 3.5 years. Everyday I am reminded that when I came to P1 I gained so much more than amazing job, but friends who have truly become family. And while we are all anxiously awaiting your debut, keep growing sweet girls! 

Emotions of the Wait

{Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7}

You would think by now we would be masters of patience and waiting. But here I sit; my heart beating like a drum, my mind racing and tears streaming down my cheeks. I imagine there will be several moments like this over the coming weeks. I find myself getting caught up in the details of what is left to do before the girls are born and then it hits me like a sack of rocks.

In all our joy and planning, just across the metroplex is a momma whose heart is breaking. Everyday she feels the sweet kicks of those baby girls and questions if she is making the right decision. Each day we inch closer to our dreams coming true, she is closer to having to face the most difficult decision of her life. Knowing that my dream of motherhood hinges on someone else's pain and suffering isn't an easy pill to swallow.

So often I wish I could just hug her and tell her she isn't alone. Reassure her that the girls will never go a day without knowing how incredible she is or how much she loves them. And I pray that in those moments when she is hurting and scared, she feels the prayers we wrapping her and her family in.

Planning Begins!

Wait!?! We need all these things on the list??

We thought we had a pretty good grasp on what we needed in order to bring 1 baby home, but 2 was another story.  I'm pretty sure registering for twins falls into the extremely stressful and overwhelming category for an OCD, researchaholic, NICU nurse Daddy to be! And maybe just little bit for Mommy to be too.

Half Marathon #12

Half Marathon #12 is in the books. I went into today knowing this race would be just as tough physically as it would be mentally given my sub-par training. I had accepted my season and was just going to have fun with my running tribe. All things considered it was pretty great race mentally and physically I felt really good until about Mile 11. Mile 12 I realized I missed a nutrition intake, but at that point the damage was done. 

When things got hard I spent those miles thinking about Parker, Peyton and their brave momma. I thought about how sometime in the next 8 weeks 1 phone call will change our lives forever. And in a brief moment when I wanted to quit, I thought about the lessons I hope to one day teach our precious girls - not just through my words, but my actions. Recovery has been a little rough today, but I'm still smiling. I am thankful for the ability to run, for a crazy supportive husband, that I got to run along side some of my very best friends and watched as one of them set nearly a 20 minute PR! 5 years of distance running and can't wait to see what adventures are to come! 

A Goal Without A Plan Is Just A Wish

Well I had a plan when my training started. Having a plan and following it are two different things. So now that we are a week out I'm going to wish for an amazing race. But truth be told I just want to have a good time with my girlfriends and finish upright.

We've Been Matched!

With grateful and humble hearts, we are so excited to share some really big news. We have been matched with an expectant Momma who is expecting TWIN GIRLS!

While nothing with adoption is final until after birth, if all goes to plan Parker Mackenzie and Peyton Ann will be joining our family sometime in April. Please join us in praying for this precious Momma and her baby girls.

Adoption is a Marathon, Not a Sprint

A dear friend reminded me tonight that our adoption journey is a marathon, not a sprint. Tonight reminds me a lot of mile 16 of when I ran the full marathon at Cowtown. I was devastated because nothing was going my way that day. At that point I was crying so hard I could barely see through my salty tears. Yet I kept moving. It was slow. It was hard. It was painful. But it wasn't the end. It was also one of the most memorable,and in an odd way, cherished moments of that race.

So today didn't go as planned, but this not the end - it is just a little rain delay. And led to an unplanned date night with Mr. Martin. Choose joy always!