When Yes Becomes No

It is with great sadness and broken hearts that we post the last MarTwins update. Tonight we found out that our expectant momma has decided parent the girls. We don't know much as we found out via a Facebook post, but they both look so healthy and precious.

And as heartbroken as we are that we will not be parenting these precious babies, we went into this journey knowing that this was part of adoption. We promised each other that we would jump in with both feet and surround our expectant momma and her babies with love and prayers. We (and our amazing village) did just that. For nearly 5 months they have been covered in prayer by hundreds of complete strangers and we were able to help support her in one of her greatest times of need.

Even though Chris and I said we would fight and pray for the girls till the end, we both have known in our hearts for a few days that something had changed. We tried to hold on to any little thing, but something had changed. We just didn't have confirmation. As much as we hurt right now, we know God has a plan for us to be parents in His time. We don't regret one bit of how we have traveled this part of the journey. From planning without hesitation, to openly sharing the ups and downs - we regret none of it.

Now is the time for us to step back and grieve. We don't know what our journey looks like from here, but we are going to hold close to God's promise that our time is coming. Please continue to keep the girls and their mom in your prayers as she takes on her new normal. And please keep us and our family in your prayers as we begin to pick up the pieces of our broken hearts and pray for guidance on how to move forward.